Thursday, May 30, 2013

As an overview of Holden, Holden has traits that go in many different categories. Most lie in what a trouble teen is. Some traits go to disturbed, and maybe a quarter with psychotic. Trouble teen would be those kind who swear/curse, fidgets, smartass to adults, smokes, etc. More than half of those of traits go into the disturbed teen. There is a thin line between troubled and disturbed. I would say Holden is both. He smokes and tries to drink, fails his classes, swears and curses, and wanders aimlessly. To test and make sure that he is in the line between troubled and disturbed teen,  I asked Holen a few questions. I asked him what makes him angry or frustrated. He told me, like all the other reponses, that he hate phonies and cannot get enough of them. He told me how much he wants to skin them alive or at least make them go away. I jotted that response down as a disturbed teen. I asked another question, I asked if he's ever did a ritual before doing something, he told me that  he does have some nervous habits, like flicking on and off lights before going into a room, turning the doorknob a few times before actually opening the door. I note that one as troubled. I asked if he's visited is families recently and how he feels about them, he said he doesn't want to visit them, they don't need him and he doesn't need them. He never told me how lonely he felt but I could tell he was, I put that reponse in troubled teen.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

The end of the interview is nearing, he sounded fine enough to be sent, he looked like he's been rehabilitated enough, bur just to make sure, I asked him a few exit questions. I asked him what was the real reason he's been sent to this session. He eyed me a bit before closing his eyes and thinking about why. I can tell why he does this, he's had a lot of stories concerning many problems he''s had so far. He sighed and told me the real reason he's been stuck in here is because of a fight within himself. Throughout the story, he's been contradicting with himself. He told me he thinks about doing one thing, but he never does it. He will try to act cool and relaxed when really he's a disaster on the inside. He doesn't admit to most things (including this), but I could tell, he's fine now.

I asked Holden if he's ever been left out by anything. Any feelings of belonging, where he wants to belong to a group or be accepted by anyone. If not feeling of belonging, I asked whether he wanted to fulfill something or if he was motivated by anything. He told me that his family, his little sister, Phoebe, has mainly been the real reason for why he's still lurking around the city streets. He says that he strives to be as good as his family and not be the stupid loner in his family. His little brother and little sister were intelligent when it came to school academics, he was the only one with no good grades, except for english. A strong feeling of trying to  belong in his family overwhelm him and that's why he cannot be seen with them. After that, he told me about when he was riding home on a taxi. He started conversing with the taxi driver, just small talk. His gaze shifted to a bunch of ducks and fish in a pond. He asked the driver, what happens to the fish and ducks when the pond freezes. Obviously the duck will be able to fly away, but the fish, since they remained underwater, the fish will be frozen. If they do not do something of the situation, they will just freeze to death, stuck at one place. I thought that related to him a lot, with how he needs to keep on moving, if he doesn't he's just going to die.

Holden's been mentioning his past experiences a lot during this interview, most of Holden's past sounding really depressing. Not a lot of happy moments, maybe even none at all. I asked him if there's something he's doing now that he's done in the past, something that influenced his daily life now or someone whom he cares about. He told me that his bad grades and personality at school is what's made him who he is now, roaming around cities with no place to stay, too ashamed to go to his family for help.I asked him if he's recently been into anyone, like liking someone. He mentioned someone called Jane Gallagher. He smiled when he talked about her, she seemed really special to him since every time I asked something related to her, he would always change from angry and annoyed to reminiscent.I asked was there something the girl and him did before. He replied by talking about something relating to playing chess when he was younger. How she would always keep her kings at the back and never move them, she thought they would die if she moved them somewhere else or into a wrong spot. He talked about how she and him were very close and if something bad happened to Jane, he would be there comforting her all the time. He smiled and ended the conversation.




It seemed like he had a pretty hard time remembering anyone that actually had put on an impact in his life. I asked hi if he had any negative relationships and he answered almost immediately. He told me he really dislikes people who are "phonies". He said they always seem to piss him off because they act indifferently towards certain people and lie. Next, he told me about his roommate, a boy named Stradlater. He told me how that boy does whatever he wants, and goes out with as many girls as he wanted. He told me they once got into a fight because he was with a girl that seemed pretty important to him, which got him kicked out of the school. He told me that he has gone throughout his high school years nomadically travelling from city to city to find places to stay for a while. Along they way, he's met with a few other people but didn't really have nice experiences, just a small chat and then farewells. I asked him why doesn't he just go back to his home with his family and stay there for a bit. He sighed and explained that he can't go back home, if he does, he'll just end up being a nuisance because of his bad reputations. He was always looked down upon in the family since he was not smart in school. He didn't want to give his family a bad name, so that's the reason why he's been moving around alone. We moved to the next subject.

From the looks of it, Holden doesn't seem like the kind of person who would make friends or socialize easily. He honestly looks like someone who would go up to you and kill you, and the hat he was wearing didn't really help. But aside from the judging thoughts, I asked him if he's had any nice relations with anyone at all, anyone that he feels ever made an impact on him or his life. He paused, and then gave me a weird stare. I didn't mind though since I'm a psychoanalyst, of course I'd get those kind of stares. I told him he can wait a little and give some time to think about it. He paused for what felt like 3 minutes or so, and began speaking. He started talking about his previous school life. He had a few friends. He mostly mentioned of a boy named Robert Ackley. He was a regular teenager, with pimples and dirty toenails. Holden spent a lot of time with Ackely, even if he hated him at times. He told that Ackely would always bother him and barge into his room and does whatever he wanted to do, even if that made Holden upset, he would still let Ackley do whatever. He said that if Ackley'd be gone for a day or something, he would start to miss his presence. He said they're good friends, and I could tell.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

During the appointment, Holden would ask me to stop asking questions, rather harshly, though I complied. He would sit in silence and close his eyes, kind of looking like he was trying to sort out his brain. It was silent for a few minutes before he slowly opened his eyes. He looked much more calmer than before. I asked if I could continue with asking questions again, he just sighed and nodded. I started asking him if he has anyone in particular whom he cares dearly for. For a minute, he closed his eyes and reopened them soon later he answered. He answered with his little brother as the subject. I asked if he can explain why. He just looked at me, nodded, and continued. He told me that his little brother was really smart, intelligent even, he was really cute and playful. He smiled and said he was a really likable child. His smile soon disappeared when he said his brother had leukemia and died. I looked at his eyes and I could see the sadness in his eyes, he really cared for his little brother. I told him he could stop if he wanted but he just shook his head and continued, he told me that he always got compliments from teachers about how great a student he was. He sounded like a really good kid. He paused for a bit, I looked at him and asked if he was okay. He said he was okay, but his eyes told a different story. I could tell from the way he acts what he was going to say next. His eyes were full of sorrow mixed with a big of anger and regret. I insisted he should stop now, and he did. We resumed to our next subject.

Thursday, May 23, 2013

I'm expecting a new client today. His name is Holden Caufield. We scheduled his appointment for today this afternoon. I expected from his voice and the way he talks, he would be some hilbilly redneck in his mid 20s or something. When he came in, he was wearing a huge coat with no gloves, and a red hat. He was no older than maybe 20, he was only a teen. I told him to sit and he did. We sat in silence as I was observing him. He coughed and looked a little annoyed by the way he was glaring at me. I asked him a few questions. He answered short answers, a yes, a no, and ocasionally a headshake. When I asked him about his personal life, he would freeze up a little, start shaking his knees, and would play with his fingers. The more personal I got with the questions, the more intense the things he was doing became. I took note that the things he was doing was a nervous habit of his.